wahahaha..~~ happy mood now..aft sch was super moody n sad nar..my biz acct is confirm 100% fail le nar..!! stupid..i cant bal e cash flow sia..haix..sianx nor..den aft tt he decided not 2 go walk walk..haix..i wanted go shan xin de..but he lz..den suan le nor..he keep sayin "excuse" den i oso sianx..den i told him my paper die le..den sms him say i sad nar..no mood..lol..den he say i go his place he pei wo..actually i dun believe nar..cos he always maple or dota de..den i there more sian n moody de..den aiya reach cck..lz 2 even call him ask him come down fetch me..
den reach his place..wah..he reali dota-in leh..but he got say aft he fin tt game he pei wo..i sianx..den i sit there pei his bro watch liu xing hua yuan..lol..act not pei la..nth 2 do ma..his bro watch den i watch lo..haha..wah his bro so power..lol..so long liao e show still like 2 watch..lol..aiya wanted 2 talk wif his bro de.. lol..ask him teach me guitar..haha..but dun dare le..ps..dun noe y..lol..hmm..den he play fin ask me go his mama rm watch tv..lol..n eat..but tt time i moody ma..den he ask me i dun wan go wan 2 watch liu xing hua yuan ma..lol..den he say go rm watch nar..den i dun wan..he juz went into e rm..lol..aft a while i gave in go oso lo..den watch dun noe some ch8 show..lol..not bad e show..den eat oso lo..yeap..den talk..crap..n watch tv..lol..aft a while he go play mario la..lol..den talk oso..den decided go lot 1 walk walk..sianx.. popular dun have e bugs bunny test pad..!! so sad..!! onli got tweety, road runner and sly de..lol though say wanna buy all kind but aiya tt time lz..lol..den nv buy lo..lol..den cont walk..nth 2 walk le he kept jk tt wanna go arcade..lol..i lz go..so nv go..haha..end up oso go..lol..no where go le den i pei him go lo..lol..b4 tt went 2 look at e cart tt sell things..wah i wanted buy e pm e sewing ting de..so nice..but nv put price dun wanna ask..lata dun wan 2 buy so ps..lol..mayb next time lo..hehe..den go in arcade we walk ard..i ask him how come nv play..lol..he actually said dis," baby here ma..lata u bored.." omg..so touched sia..*i noe im crazy la* lol..but den cant believe he actually said tt..lol..so happy nor..den i told him "u go play lo..den i go back" lol..
baby ar..THX A MILLION..!! 2day u pei wo..thx..so long le i finally felt cherished again..lol..other days got some action u made me feel cherished nar..but 2day is e most happy de..!! i love you..!! hugs..!! hehe..juz now nearly tear cos reali moody ba..cry 1 relief stress de me..lol.. lucky i control nar..but ya..when u wipe away my tears, i realise i reali wan u 2 cherish n love me forever..n tt i reali love you..though everytime i sad i find my frdx instead, i tink of u 1st..lol..u are the 1 i need..
wanted get baby sth de..lol..but end up didnt..dun noe wat 2 get oso..lol..mayb next time when go town ba..lol..den go get..yeap..hehe..
thinking of you @ 7:04 PM
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thinking of you @ 6:15 PM
wahaha..yest i reach hm at 11.45 i tink..i noe i reached amk at 11.30..lol..1st time so late go back sia..happy..!! haha..but onli was cos had a concert..yeap..concert ended at abt 9.43pm..den baby ask me wanna have supper not..but abit scared la..cos so late le..dun noe wat 2 tell parents..haix no choice i wanna spend more time wif baby ma..esp since we've nv been out so long..lol..den end up no choice..yeap..den go lot 1 eat mac..lol..actually wanted ask him pei wo to amk de..but i tink he tired oso la..e nite b4 slpt onli a few hrs..haix..oh well..next time mayb? lol..
E CONCERT WAS SUPER NICE~~!! i tink they sing much beta den e sg idol contestants..lol..got 2singers sop de..omg..their voice is super high n sharp..i was so impressed man though my ears hurt a lil..cos ears 2 sensitive le..lol..but overall i tink was great la their singing reali rocks..lol..now i tink my singing is bad lol..but hearing them sing reali make me miss choir days..sigh..though i hate prac but ya still enjoy them..lol..enjoy performin oso..lol.. yeap..
haha..1st time go this type of concert wif baby sia..lol..dun noe he like oso not.. haha..but i like leh..mayb cos i like music ba..yeap yeap..i like instrumental concerts oso..lol.. esp piano..yeap..
b4 concert baby go disturb eddie..baby meant it as a joke de..even peiyi oso noe..but eddie took it so seriously..! omg..den ene up peiyi n eddie quarrel..haix..sorry mei..!! but ya i still side aaron..not cos aaron my bf la..but ya..i tink eddie over reacted..sigh..n like u say ba..1mth he like tt le..sigh..anyway mei ar..i reali hope u'll b happy..!! any probs muz come 2 me okie? i'll support u..n if 1 day u wan me 2 give him a "lecture" in a gentle way..i will..cos i still tink he needs 2 noe..if not misunderstanding occur..n yes i noe wat u mean by u wan him 2 do tings fr his heart..i oso wan sia..lol..but sometimes ppl need telling..hope u two are ok now..yeap..
wah..den aft supper went back amk meet dad..lol..den took e last train back.. wah lucky left le if not gone case..haha..
actually surprise he ask me meet him there..still wondering y..usually he will go fetch me fr e place de..lol..mayb he wan train me more independent le..yay..!! hmm..reali hope 1day he will still help me wif baby ting..haix..i reali hate dis secret life..!! startin ok la exciting 2 hide fr parents..esp i could hide it for 2yrs not bad..but now reali tirin la..tired of lies n hurt n pain n guilt..!!! haix..
baby ar..i noe i tend 2 feel insecure..mayb its cos of e sudden change in us ba.. i noe when im insecure i tend 2 get veri moody den u get it fr me..den u oso irritated den we quarrel all over again..lol..but ya..i'll change ok? i realised i've grown 2 b dependent on u..n tt's not a veri good ting..lol..i need 2 b dependent..!! i must..!! yeap..but i hope u'll change oso..change ur attitude wif life n b serious..ok..i've seen small changes ya..cont improving okie? lol..
yi mei mei n eddie rs kinda off remind of me n u in e past..last yr..lol..wat happen in e 1st yr is blurred in my memo..but ok when i tink bits n pieces will come back 2 me..but last yr was e worst yr for us..so many quarrels..so many hurts..so many pains..sigh..but thx baby for changing..mayb i've nv shown my gratitude..but ya.. I LOVE YOU TILL E END OF TIME..!! muacks..
thinking of you @ 5:35 PM
wahahaha..2day peiyi came my house..lol..end up helpin her do maths..!! lol..wah..rem e days i had 2 crack my brain for maths..nv tot i will have 2 crack my brains for maths aft o lvl again..lol but it was fun doin leh..lol..esp algebra..lol..had lunch..den aft tt talk..hmm..den she juz left not long ago..go find her bf..lol..hope lata they wun quarrel..!! eddie ar..muz pei her lo..cannot slack..u tink u win her heart fully le meh? even so..u still need 2 pei her 2 show u reali care lo..haix.. GUYS..!! when will they ever understand our hints..?! lol..
den bring her 2 e bus stop..lol..hg pt got 2 bus stop ma..den we walk n walk..i tot e bus stop at hg pt de got 112 so we walk there..lol..den realise dun have..den cross e road de..oso dun have.. T.T tot i mistaken sia..den we walk back 2 e earlier bus stop den found out have..wah lucky sia..if not have 2 go back my house here de bus stop..lol..den off she went..
tml gg out wif peiyi mei n baby..lol..ooh..!! n meetin nic jia oso..lol..cos nic jie sis in a concert ma..den she ask if i wanna go..so asked baby along lo..den heard no1 gg oso..den i ask peiyi mei along..lol..but we meetin earlier ba..yeap..mayb have dinner or sth..baby ask wanna go his place..wah now a bit sianx 2 go earlier liao..haix..tot of gg shoppin sia..lol..if not muz wait till aft exam le..sianx..by then every1 so bz wif exams..yi mei sure bz wif o lvl..baby got sch..anyway he dun go shoppin wif me de..ooo..mayb can ask sin yee..!! lol..we say wanna go shoppin 2gether for a veri long time le..haha..
fin 2day event..start wif yest de..lol..went 2 cher lilian house..lol..wah..i tink her house veri cosy n nice la..though at 1st i tot its veri narrow n cramp..lol..but aft a while i love it there la..so many cool things..lol..cool tings means nice things..lol..she got so many cosmetics..!! omg..lol..so many perfume n eye shadow e list goes on..lol..den play her piano..wah..her piano oso not bad de..lol..but i prefer amelia dar's piano leh..sound nicer..lol..yeap..den wei yi played wif cher cosmetics..lol..den she oso teach us how 2 put on la..n everyting..lol..oooh..!! b4 gg her house meet her at bedok interchange ma..den went 2 "the body shop" lol..cos she wanna redeem sth but her house a lot so she gave us..den she buy tings for us oso..wah..so nice of her..she bought lip gross for me oso..yeap..nice cher..!! lol..dis yr cher day muz find sth 2 give her man..if not i feel bad..lol..hmm..den snack a lot sia..lol..but lucky got eat fruits lol..wanted make cheese cake de..lol..but tt time quite late le n dun noe dad wat time comin so ya lo..end up didnt make..lol saw photos aft her last time..wah..she look reali guai sia..saw her 1st bf..den her weddin pic..her parents..aiyo a lot la..lol..got even cher lily..!! lol..got 1 pic they 2 veri cute sia..lol..but i cant pic cher lily so havok last time..lol..e cher lily i noe is strict de..got la..she got joke n everyting..lol mayb cos tt time iher student ba..lol..but overal cher lily is nice n lovely de..juz fierce..haha..esp when i already veri nervous cos nv prac tt much..den she angry some more..omg more mistakes lol..but oh well..every cher is diff..hehe..but didnt regret gg cher lilian house yest..lol..at 1st a bit lz go..lol..but go lo..haf 2 prac wif her ma..lol..
every1 is diff n tink differently abt dis tings..but well..when we love some1 we will have 2 accept their good side and their faults..lol..nowdays i seem 2 b veri veri insecure wif him sia..esp since he veri slack nowadays wif me.. T.T sigh..i oso dun noe wat is my feelings abt dis sia..lol..so cannot tell him my upsetness oso..den he oso need his space..haix..but he seem 2 b less caring den b4 le..T.T ok all e while when im sad most of e time oso not he comfort me de.. hah..den how come he my bf sia..aiyo..lol..feel like deletin our blog..anyway it died le..some1 promised 2 update oso nv..sigh..oh well..lookin forward for tml..lol..hope can drag him out of his house..!! yeap yeap..
wei yi ar..i noe tml u sure sad de..i go out wif frdx n him again..den u alone again. haix..im sorry..but next time u'll oso b like tt de..everytime i go out wif frdx..ur blog entries always sad de..haix..
thinking of you @ 5:34 PM
when will i get e feeling of belonging?! haix..im so sick n tired of feeling left out..!! haix..forget it..dun wan 2 tink anymore..!! all i noe is i'll nv belong..!! not even in my family..sometimes feel tt my fam is so far apart though we laugh n joke..but e communication is not there..ARGH..!!
i'll juz live in my own lonely world of pain...
ere's a shout out to poh eng n srn..
HAPPY SWT 18TH..!!
yi meimei came my house 2day..finally..lol..den she do her maths i do my biz law notes..lol..wahahahaha..left 3more chap..haha..but sch hols gonna end le..dun tink i can write fin sia..lol..still got other work haven do yet..haix..so many more subj..!! SHIT..I JUZ REM I GOT 2 WRITE OUR MY JAP SPEECH IN HIRAGANA..!! omg..i beta start writin..haha..i tink i lost my speech oso..haix..need 2 go find le..lol..
ok back 2 yi meimei came..helped her wif maths..ok la..i didnt help her tt much.. got 1 qn on vectors i dun noe how 2 do..!! omg..i totally forgot a lot of tings..lol..haix..sry mei didnt help much..but hope u understand those i explained..!! lol..hope 2 meet up soon lol..den can study 2gether or wat..hehe..miss ya
i cant take pic of me n sis *tt day e neoprint..lol..* sianx..dun noe how 2 upload sia..haix..oh well..shall see how..
thinking of you @ 11:46 AM
AHHH~~~ i wanna cry le...haix..i lost my ring..!!!! haix...it has 2 b somewhere at hm..cos i back hm yest wif it..!! took it off in t bathroom b4 bath..when i rem i forgot 2 wear back 2day go find not in toilet le..!! haix..asked mum..noe wat she actually said.!? "lost nvm la.." she muz b dam happy inside la..she hated tt ring..she hated it tt its e ring he gave me..!! she hated him for givin my tt ring..hated tt i always wore it..!!!!! fed up la..how come dis hols totally stinks..except for a few moments of fun..everytday im sulkin..!! feelin moody..!! argh..!!
i have 2 find tt ring..it has 2 b somewhere..!! haix..im so upset le..n my mum actually made me more upset..!! haix..stupid stupid stupid me.!! so careless..!! haix..
wanted upload pics but looks like i no mood le..fed up..!! she will NEVER EVER UNDERSTAND ME..!! even if i went 2 talk 2 her..!! haix......
9.20pm
ooh..!! i found e ring..!! im so happy..!! lol..THANKS GOD..!! for givin me back e ring.. ^^
thinking of you @ 8:49 PM
2day went out wif sis..lol..ok la..but i tink she was bored..cos we diff freq..haix..lol..but okie la.. still got chat chat..we took neoprints..lol..but den e picutres are so SMALL..!! sobx..we wanted 2 choose how many ppl de..den dun noe how come suddenly fin..haix..mayb is cos not enough time? dun noe oso..oh well..i tink e pics were great..lol..shall upload it soon..mayb tml ba..yupx..
watched garfield 2..lol..nice..funny..cute..!! interesting..n 4star fr me..lol.. wanna watch so many more shows..haix..but im officially broke..lol..bought a scandle 2day..finally..haha. so ya..broke..haix.oh well..lol..
iMISShim. sigh..
thinking of you @ 8:14 PM
wahahaha..miss ah yen darling already..lol..met wif her for lunch 2day..lol..quite fun sia..ok la..i tink we were a bit dun noe wat 2 say..den tink of wat den say but ya..it GREAT 2 see her again..!! lol..den ate mac..lol..she ate fries i ate a meal..lol..den eat n chat..den nearly end tt time saw michelle tan..!! lol..so qiao..lol..ok lo..say hi..den they both crap a bit..lol..we chat abt e old days den her future wif her bf..lol..nice sia..gettin engaged next yr..!! envy u again..lol *dun scold me for envying lol* but ya..happy for u wor..u've found wat u wan.. =) jiz you for u two okie? lol mayb 1day can go double date or wat..hehe..or e darlins go out can liao..lol..its so long tt we meet 2gether..lol..but its okie..close frdx dun need always meet..wat counts is e frdship is not lost n that it still grows stronger.. =)
den aft tt went 2 back 2 meet hwee they all 2 study for biz law..lol..den was e paper itself..it was like omg lo..i cant rem e case names..!! den i juz left it blank there n cont 2 write e held..lol..dun noe can a not sia..lol..oh well..prepared for e worst again..sigh..
den e proj for biz law doin wif faz..!! woohoo~~ lol..hanting ar..keep laugh at me..now u see how..wahahahaha..e rest of my members are mingde, shi li and jy..lol..sianx shi li sure feel out again..hmm..muz get them 2gether 2 discuss e case liao..lol..yupyup..
dis few days been moody lol..on n off de..sianx wor..lol..most cos of baby la..but nvm i muz ren..!! lol..muz b understandin oso wor..bt hor..baby ar..u oso muz b understandin ma.. lol.. yupyup.. hmm.. heard when go ns rarely can meet..sigh..oh well..its okie..lol..juz hope u wun b like srn ex..go ns everyting change..sigh.. I LOVE YOU till e end of time..!!
tml morning gg sch at 8 2 jog again..lol..fun fun fun..!! lol..anyway hope can lose wt faster..!! i need 2 motivation 2 exercise during e hols..!! muz get back e habit of skippin 1000times each morning..!! lol..muz muz muz..!! jia you jia you jia you..!! lol..im gg crazy.. haha..
- here's a shout out (not in any order):
- ah yen..!! no matter where we are..u'll always b my darling..cos u made a huge footprint in my heart. though we have much difference 2 go thru but ya..darlings forever!! *like wat we used 2 say* huggiex..
- sister..!! huggiex..!! sorry i've always hurt u..i love you still.
- ah ling mei..!! u still have us frdx n jie..lol..stay strong..!! huggiex.
- peiyi mei mei..!! give it all 2 love..cos love shld not have contraints..even if it dun work out, u'll have nice memories 2 keep.. =) huggiex..
- parents..i noe i've been bad..i noe u care..sorry im not e daughter u wan..but i noe u still love n care for me..i love you all too. huggiex..!!
- terence: you've hurt..i noe i dun sms 2 ask how r u..cos i reali dun noe wat more 2 say 2 console u..i hope u'll pull thru dis trial n let her go..stay strong..!!
- 2 my other beloved frdx n god-siblings.. i miss ALL of ya..!!
- i kept dis for e last.. BoiiBoii..*i love callin u this..sound so cute..lol* no matter wat i've said or tink...i noe i do love you.. muacks..!!
thinking of you @ 5:46 PM
2day jap was okok la..lol..though was veri nervous when doin the test..lol..hmm..1st gave my speech cut short a lot cos cher say dun need so long..lol..den is conversation..lol..she ask abt piano cos i say my hobby is playin e piano ma..lol..den is picture time..haha..but e picture is diff fr our norm oral..lol..dis 1 is ask e price n telephone no. 2 read out..lol..quite ez la..but e prob is i dun noe how 2 say those big big nos. lol..didnt study ma..oh well..lol..den fin le..haha..yupyup..
been moody since yest..lol..2day veri ez fed up..sianx..y ar? y m i such a person? haix..oh well..heard some1 broke off wif bf le..yet she is brave..i admire her courage ba..though i dislike her so much..now come 2 tink of it..she is not tt bad..esp tink back on e times she console me? but... haix..proj time reali veri unhappy lo..so how in all? wat shld i do or tink?!?! m i a bad person 2 b so evil?! haix..oh well. hmm..how will one know hu is true or not?! haix..fan shi wo.. but if she reali gonna b a changed person.. den i muz learn 2 let it go..n start e frdship again..? if its this way..den okie..i will let it go..yupyup..hehe..
now back aching sia..lol..yest mornin go sch jog wif poh eng,alex..oh faz went too. hehe..but i end up walkin more la..sianx..nvm..sch hols go back jog? hehe..now we noe alex oso wanna jog de..lol..can ask faz along oso..hehehehe..enjoyed yest session..yupx..
baby..i miss u sia..haix..mayb tt's y i so moody yest..lol..huggiex..!! nvm..tml i can see u le..lol..so excited..!! lol..tml yi meimei n eddie n baby comin over lol..of cos b4 parents come back muz leave le..if not die..yupx..hehe..muacks baby!! wo yong yuan dou bu xiang li kai ni de sheng pian..
haha..e pic i promise 2 upload..lol..ugly hor? lol..but now dun look like tt le..cos i nv make hair curl..lol..so now str le..got time i take another pic of e present..lol..got more pics comin up..lol..
act cute nia..lol..i still love tt fringe..!! now sometimes e fringe oso not nice..sianx..haha..hols come ..i muz try 2 learn to style my hair..lol..
ugly girl again..lol..muz remove my pimples..!! cannot b lz le..2nite start muz put medicine..lol
slant view..lol..
shall upload other pics soon..lol..hope tml can take pics wif mei n eddie n baby..lol..yupyup.. den upload 2gether..lol..
thinking of you @ 8:32 PM
明天有日语考试。。sianx..lol..dun noe can make it not..cos is speech..!! omg..haix.. juz now aft tax extra lesson..lol..den we all almost write same tings..but i lol..oh well..hmm..hope tml okiez ba..lata need 2 go rem my speech..lol..せ ん せ い say cannot look at speech..sianx..lol..but we juz peek can ba? lol
i miss him sia..sigh..but will he cherish me like he used 2 to? baby.. do u tink of me as often as i do? sometimes i wonder..but sigh..its okie..i believe you love me too. muacks..
i miss him sia..sigh..but will he cherish me like he used 2 to? baby.. do u tink of me as often as i do? sometimes i wonder..but sigh..its okie..i believe you love me too. muacks..
she can b im a mist of a crowded road..yet she feels empty and alone...
thinking of you @ 5:49 PM
wah..finally can update..tt day update fin liao..cannot save..den i diao..lz 2 retype everyting..!! lol now forget wat i typed le..sianx..lol..oh well..nvm nvm..hehe
yi meimei rs well..full of uncertainties of her own..hope she will sort tings out soon..!! jia you girl..!! hehe..mayb dis time give urself a chance 2 prove ur fears..okie? huggiex..!! cant wait for wed 2 come..lol..yupyup..hehe..
haix..projx comin 2 due..ica comin again..startin 2 stress up..but all im tinkin of is gg out wif meimei n eddie n of cos my baby dearest..lol..haix..den like tt i veri hard 2 meet mambers do proj..they sure not happy wif me..!! sobx..hmm..but den of cos i will do my part lo.. yupyup..hmm..hope they ok wif me..cos i tink everytime sit there not productive de..do ur own work..den its like oso not tt much communication ba..so ya lo..i rather stay hm do..i can tink beta.. lol..
hols comin yet all e stress are comin lol..aft hols 5more wks den is exam le..!! omg..!! haix..i beta start readin thru those lecture notes which i have not been listening 2..lol.. sigh..but im a slacker..!! how did i manage 2 get into here? i have no idea..!! lol..
my ah gong 2day discharged le..lol..happy happy..but haix..heard he dun have tt much time 2 live..pray hard ba..pray tt he can live longer..!! yupyup.. lata gg 2 visit him..yupyup
baby ar..i tink our rs gettin stronger n stronger..lol..at least we dun quarrel as much as we used to..esp last yr..even if quarrel oso like tt..lol..spice up e rs..lol..but ya la there are still times when i wonder if u care..thoes times are when u wif frdx or gamin den ur reply 2 me is so short..lol..den dun sms find me le..lol..but nvm la..i understand u need ur space..hehe i love you always..!! lol.. muacks..!!
thinking of you @ 4:48 PM
